One Job

a new kind of numb

not devoid of emotion

but not doggy-paddling in it either

it's like I'm wandering around

in clothes that are sopping wet

not heavy

but enough to still feel it

I wobble when I stand

fingers tremble as I type

cheeks tingle coldly

stomach doesn't grumble

I just wanted to feel something

but if the medication makes me feel

nothing at all

then is it doing its job?