Clothes Line

You know, 

I want to be normal

I want to be able

to answer the phone at work 

without having to take 

a gargantuan breath first 

and then stuttering 

and getting flushed

I want to be able to 

calmly drive somewhere 

that I've never been before 

and I want to be able 

to merge onto a highway 

without hyperventilating 

like a broken vacuum 

I want to be able to 

ignore the impatience 

in other peoples' eyes 

as they watch me hesitate 

while ordering food

I don't want to be

mentally crippled 

for the rest of my life

I don't want to be

strung so tight

for the rest of my life

I don't want

this racing mind

Anxiety