Bad

I have good days and bad days,
good weeks and bad weeks,
and good months and bad ones.

I am more often bad than good,
but I will always crave to be more,
than "bad" in all its big scary context,
and in its accurate definition:

[verb] 1.    the act of being unable to remove oneself from a mattress lacking sheets

     2.    to constantly tell more little white lies as "insurance"

             3.    to use others for one's perpetual personal advantage

[synonyms] - inferior, inadequate, synthetic, rough, me