summer time bluesA Poem by spacebeing on the edge of seventeen and feeling utterly, terribly, completely trappedin this weather, two days is the same as two weeks the summer’s almost over I can feel it the pounding of the heart inside my chest (thumpthumpthumpthumpthump) when I begin to realize that its all gone. wasted and I probably should be
spending the time with friends, but theyre all with theyre other friends. their
better friends. best friends. that’s not what I am to them so I sit inside the un-airconditioned
house that ive the fireflies floating
outside of the windows don’t feel quite the same instead of usual nostalgia
of prior years, this time, I think its fear everywhere I go, someone
is asking what are you doing after
high school or where are you going to
college or what are you going to do
with the miserable, wretched existence that you’ve been given on this earth? (no one actually says
that. that’s just what I ask myself everyday) my anxieties have
outgrown me, theyre a large hulking mass knocking on the inside of my skull and
threatening to break out from within everyone says ‘youre so
talented / you will accomplish every single one of your dreams / I believe in
you’ I don’t think I can
believe in myself when this summer is over,
what about the next? what will I do when I come to the edge of the precipice between
running and falling, pass or fail. life or death I have no choice but to
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