age, 16

how will i get through life when i can't even handle being 16?

theres' just so much pressure from education to family, from one party to another

not to mention the parties i'm not invited to

and the parties within parliament which are messier than my bedroom floor

my friends look at me and see a smiling face

never one to miss a joke or add to a lit conversation

but why do i feel as if inside i'm merely a flame trying to keep alight?

why do i feel as if i'm just a hit-or-miss, a joke itself?

what else can i say other than i miss being a kid?

i want to feel the spread of goosebumps on my skin from adrenaline

instead i cower from their invasion as Fear leads the way

and i'm just here sitting on my bed writing a poem