A possible forever

This is my first post in a while. I have had many life changes over the last few years and I am questioning if I have recently made the best choices for myself.

Standing at the edge of a tunnel, I have found the light.

It is much brighter than I imagined it to be.

It is disconcerting.

From misery to apathy, I am a ghost.

A shell of  a person, living in this hollow life created for another.

I was not going to do this.

I was not meant to do this.

But what other options do I have?

I am not born of natural talent, beauty, or grace.

I missed the chance I wanted to take.

For it was not safe.

But, what am I left with now?

A lonely heart and an empty vow.