Floating

Will I ever return to Earth again? 

Every time my feet come close to touching the ground I’m suddenly thrusted back into suspension.

A tree who lost her roots. 

But now how will she survive ? 

Contemplating the struggle to dig back down or stay up in the air consumes my thoughts.

Will I ever return to Earth again?

My brain brimming with sorrow,

I only imagine his face.

The only image I can handle and the one image that tears me apart.

It sits in my brain like a hefty anchor.

I feel it slipping deeper and deeper inside of me.

Will I ever return to earth again?

Will I ever love again?

The future is opaque.

A muddy brown layer of dirt covers my perspective.

I feel so disconnected.

I’m defective.