Out Of "Love"

my mother

when i was young, my mother's pale skin was laced with bruises

these weren't ordinary bruises, they were out of love

my father 

when i was young, my father's breath was laced with alcohol and sadness

these weren't ordinary beers, they were only 5% alcohol and 95% love 

i learned that love was painful 

when your hand collided with my face

 it was out of love

when you screamed profanities at me 

it was out of love 

when you threw a vase at the wall

 it was out of love

 

everything you did was out of love 

but in the end I was the one who was blinded by your love to realize

you were the one who was damaging my heart

and even though it was out of love,

it still f*****g hurt like hell