It came without a warning,
All the insecurities she thought she'd long conquered.
Came crushing in once she had sobered.
Right off the bat she had learnt that nothing ever really dies.
Not the well buried secrets and definitely not the lies.
Maybe she was foolish. Maybe she was reckless.
Or maybe she was just a broken girl feeling so helpless,
For every random stranger she tried to impress.
Turned out to be just another stage to undress.
Even needle marks tracing her skin like constellations,
Couldn't erase the shame plastered on her heart like decorations.
They couldn’t fix her thoughts. Couldn’t relieve her pain.
Couldn’t erase the nightmares from her brain.
Slowly, gently, darkness unrolled it’s splendor,
And she gave into her demons in a sweet surrender,
To drown the bitter memories she'd rather not remember.
And harden the soul that was once too tender.
To her, life was a thorny one-way track,
Where she'd rather stumble forward than go back,
To where Mummy was always numb on Prozac.
And Daddy was a sadistic maniac.
Their disturbing resemblance filled her with terror,
Every time she dared look in the mirror.
Like a bad jingle, their hurtful words echoed in her brain,
Until they threatened to drive her insane.
Of all the unthinkable choices she had ever made,
The easiest was to drown the haunting voices in her head.
For when the regrets pass and the worries are gone,
She would finally get a chance to move on.
So she took the whiskey and handful of pills,
Hoping 'nothingness' would finally cure her ills.
Then she lay on the cold floor and counted to three,
Until the bright light came to set her free.
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