the girl on the background

I painted my nails, and bleached my hair,
for the boy who doesn’t care.
I tried to smile, and laugh out loud,
but it’s like he couldn’t hear a sound.
And the dresses that I wore,
they just ended up making me look like a w***e.
For when I tried even more,
I ended up being ignored.
All the while I kept hurting,
as my thoughts kept swirling,
Maybe he did not like my accent,
or was allergic to my perfume.
Maybe I should buy him a present,
or would that be too soon?
I should probably write him a letter,
but no, a poem would be better.
What if he has a girlfriend?
Can I just settle for being his best friend?
Or I should just forget about him
but what if I can’t get over him.
These thoughts consumed me
and ended up confusing me.
I was just the girl on the background in his big-scene life.
waiting for the spotlight to shine on my desperate love.

Reviews

[ANTO]

My word, this is heartbreaking writing Sonnie. So many things the girl tried - losing more and more of herself in the fruitless attempt to be more like what she thought he wanted and to no avail - yet she did not give up hope. The girl is strong (and sadly, maybe foolish too) and that strength shows through in her tenacity. Her creativity shines in her various attempts to be what he wants - so she also has buckets of empathy to be able to put herself into his shoes and imagine what it is that he wants.
She will come to her sense I feel and realise that she is the prize not he, she will be loved.
I loved this bittersweet poem Sonnie.
:)

[sonnie ibadah]

thank u so much ANTO, sometimes we go about looking for love in the wrong places i guess but hopefully it won't be too late to realize that we are losing ourselves in the process. Again, thank you for your wonderful review ;)

[Coyote Poetry]

Love is our biggest victories and biggest loss.
"I was just the girl on the background in his big-scene life.
waiting for the spotlight to shine on my desperate love."
When we observe life. We are not a part of it. Thank you dear Poet for sharing your outstanding poetry.
Coyote

[sonnie ibadah]

thank you for your wonderful review ;)

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome.

[jemaral]

I love it.. The bitter taste of attraction unnoticed.. The struggle against fear of rejection.. The thirst for attention.. The growing need to express affection.. the conflict between love and friendship.. This piece captured a myraid of emotions and thoughts one goes through when one feels love unrequited towards a friend.. The message is wonderfully expressed though I feel it would have been better if the rhyming stayed consistent althorughout since in this poem it starts of with solid rhyming and gradually degrades as it progresses. Still this pretty amzaing work.. great job!!!

[sonnie ibadah]

thank u so much for reading and reviewing this ;)

[Kenny Alex]

He was probably busy trying to be a hero luv

[Saddam]

These thoughts consumed me
and ended up confusing me.
I was just the girl on the background in his big-scene life.
waiting for the spotlight to shine on my desperate love.

I had seen a movie, no remember when, but there was a girl like you character. She loved a guy much but the guy did't care her. One day he realize, but there was no one to hear him.
You poetry is so beautiful and I guess he will understand you soon.

[sonnie ibadah]

thank u so much buddy, i rlly enjoyed writing this

[Saddam]

....And you have putted it well. You're most welcome dear.