jabirs revenge part 5

April 3.

i think i am winning this battle with the weaker side…what fun, she will soon be gone, no matter her little friend Adina…oh i will make her leave just like i did Jabir…but oh, i do miss him so….he actually loved us both for a moment i thought… no!! i will not let those useless thing cloud my mind, i will only have to wait and they will fade just like everything does…fade in and out….in and out..like a breath in and out…it will all fade including her and these emotions with her

April 6.

i can't she is trying to control me!! trying to make Adina leave just like she did Jabir!! please go!! please make her go God please!!! you have to!! i know you can do it!! please!! make her leave!!!

April 9.

her obsessions are becoming mine…just like they where before she made him leave… threes..and air…threes and air… threes and air… GOD PLEASE MAKE HER LEAVE!!!!

April 12.

oh, this little girls pathetic cries to keep her precious Adina are so amusing!! i know now that losing her will make her stronger, just like losing him did, but in turn she will fade like fog in the morning, her strength only a small burst of life a child's final cry… i left my final maybe in the final wake of love… his hold on me is no more…but, still i fear… NO!!! no fear!!! i will not fear the likes of him!!!  HE IS GONE!!! is this fear? or does his lingering soul wait like a sweet sweet odor in the air? it just may…maybe…NO no maybe's this i vow no more maybes only sureties 

April 15.

i do not know when she comes..i do not know when she leaves… she is more in control now than before he left… God if you hear me… save me…please…

April 18.

 little whelp what have you done?

April 21.

we are both going to leave…i see that now… i can only pray i have the strength to continue until you take me home and send her to the depths of hell. please God make it quick i want to see your shining face

April 24.

the useless thing has finally ceased her struggle within me!! this flesh is mine!!! she is doing nothing for the first time since i was a mere babe. but it seems….there is something else here…something that is much stronger…no it is nothing this flesh is mine!! the world will behold me and none will be the wiser

April 27.

they found the poor boy. she seems so giddy with joy..just like she was when he left..i miss him so..his smell his eyes..his love…if i focus hard enough i can trick myself into thinking he is still here..beside me…hiding behind me so playful like he used to…about to reach his hands around cover my eyes and say guess who? his goofy grin…his comforting words…God please make this end quickly i know you can….please show her..show her she can change.

April 30.

she is so silent its like she's forgotten i am here….i don't know if this is a blessing or a curse…i cared for her so much…we used to talk about everything…but now she hides from me…please God bring her back to me..the way you would have her.. the way you would change her into what you meant her to be..take her pain away..heal her..strengthen her…take her fears…Please let this nightmare be over soon...

Reviews

[Ethale Captor]

Another excellent continuation, I, likewise, look forward to the next.

[marie]

I'm glad you like it:) the next should be up by next week:)

[Ethale Captor]

I will be waiting.

[marie]

:)

[Nick.B]

Interesting in april 3 she thinks that all will be back to normal, but slowly all hell will break loose, again. Good chapter, shows how desperate she has become from the first part all the way to this...

[marie]

thank you for the review i'm glad you liked it:) and i don't think for her there will ever be a "normal"