awake

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breathe focus on the music in your heart remember her, and him take deep breathe

ignore the pain these illusions cause you they are lies in and out, breathe don't let the fear invade you stupid imbecile don't cry. you are strong, remember?inhale, exhale don't you dare scream why did you scream? i told you not to.sing, let that calm you they are there, waiting for you to come back, you'll wake up soon don't worry its ok. NO!!! ignore the pain it won't be there long. breathe. breathe BREATHE!!! good in and out. focus. find a part of you that doesn't hurt, and if everything does imagine peace. its ok its ok its ok you are safe, they can't actually hurt you, its just a dream. 

this seemed to be the only thing that worked for lilly, it carried her through her pain, and reminded her it was jut a dream, but she knew her grip on reality was fading, it always did, every night and she awoke still thinking she was in that place that dwelt in her dreams. where she could swim in her own blood where she was tortured every night. most people couldn't feel pain in dreams, but she could. lately the scars in her dreams where carrying over to reality. a long pink stretch rippled across her back, a line of frail pale skin went over her arm. in reality nothing had happened, but in her dream she remembered how each one came about. the one on her back came from her best friend in reality, and her worst enemy in her dreams. she had cut a strip on her back underneath her spine with a precision she should never had have in this reality. lilly had hung that way for three hours her own blood pouring down her face. the scar on her arm was from her father. but only in the dream. he had taken a pitch fork and raked it down her arm exposing her bone. all the while throughout both of these tortures they all had laughed and called out YOU DESERVE THIS!!! lilly shuddered at the memory. and she brushed her hand over her arm she let a single thought evade her defenses

how do you know this is not a dream, and what you refer to the dream is actually reality? how do you know? stop. i know because she is here my best friend and protector, my lady. and i know because he is here and he is the only one who cares. he loves me. aro loves me. 

lilly forced her breathing to remain calm. but the ache in her chest from all of the confusion remained. she wished that she could talk to her lady openly but no that relationship was a secret, people would get the wrong idea, and because it was a secret lilly had one weapon. on defense. this was the only way she knew that she was safe. at least while she was awake.