I wish I knew

another old poem from the past

Alone in my head, with no way out

To many thoughts, to many doubts

I use to run when it felt this way

Now it's like I'm dying to stay

Push and pull with every word

And sometimes they can burn

It’s not like a cut to watch you bleed

It’s more like something is controlling me

I want to scream I want to cry

But for some reason I just sit by

 

I smile this smile to cover the pain

And act like everything is ok

When really it feels like there's a flood in my soul

Filled with constant fear of letting go

Even though I know letting go would be right

Walking away to save my mind

Instead I hold on to a dream that is UN real

As sorrow in my heart continues to fill

 

I need you hear I need you gone

Something inside of me is seriously wrong

I want to leave so I pull away

But then I can't so I choose to stay

It’s like I can’t make up my mind

So I keep it to myself all the time

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me

It’s like something has control and there’s no answers to be seen

 

It’s like my mind is constantly confused

And my heart is torn in two

I just wish I could figure out what’s wrong

I wish someone could tell me what’s going on......