kyanite sparkles

You said you turned around, and I was there.

Yet I've always been here.

Waiting.

Impatiently patient.

Just for you.

And you were there too.

Convincingly charming...

till my fears tore at my soul.

And my shadow appeared and darkened me.

So you vanished.

Me - poisoned again by my past

of rejection, hurt and anger.

So again I' rejected the one I adore.

And again he's escaped to an uncomplicated easiness.

and so now I reside in my loneliness

dreaming of kyanite sparkles

which sent shudders down my spine...

and sensual lips which exhilerated me down to my toes

and a heart which skipped infinite beats

pounding from your wanderlust,

so peacefully pure and personified.

Then catching myself too quickly,

not wanting to be your predator or your prey

just an imperfect partner, perfect to you as you were to me
I left.... you never knowing that you were none like any other.

I smile sporadically, somberly saddened

as I realize you're not here, nor will you be again.

And your vivid magnetic sparkles are lost to me,

their exquisiteness now only a special memory in my imagination.

And so I resist, yet the tears pour.

And your beauty still touching my soul

with constant idle thoughts of you invading

I detach and see a picture of perfectless me
beckoning my angels to tell your angels to come back to me.