Ode To Love

My memory of a first.

No. No. No. NOO! I clamp my hands over my ears and close my eyes tight. He is not what you accuse him of. He is mine. He is perfect. He is faithful! He is my love. MINE. Not some girls. Some little stature of a girl. An innocent girl. A girl who knows nothing of me... No! He has not done any of this! He has not done any of the things.

 

....How could he. I open my eyes and see flames surrounding everything. Lining everything in red. He betrayed me. He played me for a fool! He expects me to just say "Okay, that's fine. Rip my heart apart when I have so willingly given it to you, stomp it on the ground like it was just a pest." He chose this! How could he not choose me!?!? He loved me. He chose this.... and now, he will recieve what he has chosen. He will soon understand what happens when he messes with me. He will understand why that was a bad idea.

 

 Aching. Breaking. Tearing. Ripping. I wrap my arms about me to keep myself sane. Too keep myself one. To keep myself alive. Breathe in. Breathe out. Repeat. Breathe in. Breathe out. Repeat. I am nothing. I have nothing. He was everything. Now he is gone.. gone.... gone. Not even the hope of tomorrow can save me.

 

 My love... My Life.. My hope. Gone. Never to return. He smiles at me like nothing is wrong.. I go up to him. Sit for a minute. Think. Must think. I have to. Think. Begging. Pleading. He looks down on me. I see the sorrow in his eyes. His guilt. His honesty. I give up. I crumble to the ground without a worry. Without a care. My eyes start to water. I go deaf. I go blind. I've gone.

 

 He left me for another. He will leave again. I will not have him as I have hoped. As I have willed. He is not mine, I am not his. We are not one. We are two. Split. But I will bleed for another. I will sing for another. I will see the stars. I will hope. I will live. I will love. 

But will I always love him..?
 

Author's Note

I am not perfect. I have made mistakes. Please try and focus on my writing.

Reviews

[I shall always love you]

Hm. I must say...this one...says a lot about you. More than you meant to let off.

[Saki]

"But I will bleed for another. I will sing for another. I will see the stars. I will hope. I will live. I will love."

Beautiful.

[Lunar Lightning]

Ah, I remember this time. Every word brought each of... "Their" Memories flooding back when so hard I worked at keeping them at bay. I think that was the biggest bostical we have overcome... the betrayal of Them. I still can't refer to either one of them individually, They are still just one person to me and always will be. This story was well written, written in the anger pain and sorrow that a girl who has just had her heart shredded while still securely in her chest. So many girls would cry at reading this, I'm glad I've held my ground... Though I might break later, we both know how that is.

Luna

[Lucia]

Very poetic and descriptive! I really like your style of writing. haha I could learn a lesion or two from you, I bet. Keep writing, you have an awesome gift. I hope to read other pieces by you soon. Spectacular! =]