To Be Said

I'm trying, and my significant other wants be there, but I have issues opening up.

I find myself in a state of mild despair.

I worried you - I’m sorry.

I didn’t mean to say such things,

But the words were sent before I could stop.

“I trust you - I do.

But this small burden does not need to make yours heavier.”

Hypocritical, I know.

I ask to carry your load -

For you not to worry -

“I can handle it.”

Can I?

I have before, but not in this way

And how can you trust me

When you think I can’t do the same for you?

I will try.

To open up, to be vulnerable.

I know you’ll be patient.

You understand more than I.

My burden is no less important.

I can talk.

I hope.