An Untold Thought

To an old friend

there's so much I wish to say,

yet I know these words should never stray,

from the lips of my mouth on this day.

my heart hurts and I can not bare,

all this pain that will never spare.

I pray your forgiveness for the words I say,

but I can’t take, feeling so cast away.

I only speak the truth because I once cared,

for you a friend that I once shared.

I tried my hardest not to fail,

but I found myself being so frail.

Now I know that my heart may be impaled.

Torn to pieces trying to fix these creases,

that lined your heart from past pain.

I used my own,

so you wouldn't take the blow,

only to end up breaking you tho.

I used all the strength I could hold,

but my heart has become so cold.

I'm no longer the girl you once thought was gold.

I couldn’t take you telling me to change,

or acting as if I am deranged.

you could never give the time,

or try to help me climb.

all I have is this never ending rhyme.

Now I will say goodbye.

I won't have to wonder why,

why you left me because I was the one who failed to fly, 

but please do not cry,

because you know I won't reply.

I will pray we meet again,

so are stories never meet and end.

I must say farewell for now,

so in this time, I do not drown.

To the people, I once knew and held dear,

don’t fear.

I know I'm different but so are you.

this comes from a girl grew,

and just maybe she flew,

to become what she was meant to be.

So she would no longer have to flee,

from the lie that bonded her heart,

from the very start.

I’ll miss you all but I have no strength left,

to hold the things inside my head.

so I'll leave for now to find the end,

so we might be the best of friends,

just like we were way back then.

 

Sage Kallen