painful situation

Hearing the words pass from my mothers mouth
The words that tear me apart at the seams
Make me break down into sobs
Give me nightmares
An haunt me

Hearing the phone ring
Freaks you out because what if its????????
It couldn't be I tell myself
But it could be
The thing I tried to blow off
Forget about
 could flip my world upside down
In only a second

My life could be taken from me
An placed somewhere else
Somewhere you always feared
An never thought would happen to you
You had a perfect family
A loving family

Why me I say
Did it happen because of me
Am I the reason for all of this
It couldn't be I think to myself
But then I realize that maybe it would be better
I feel like Im battling a never ending war
One thing could go wrong
An I would be switched for life

A new family
A new identity
A new me