Trust Issues

the struggle to trust people these days, the struggle to know they won't betray you

Censoring my words
For certain prying ears
How can I be sure
Betrayal wont repeat itself
Some secrets
Aren't meant to be heard
And definitely not
Spread around
Things have a habit
Of coming full circle
Numerous times
It's come back to bite me
I try to stay
Within my own boundaries
Avoid lines
Not meant to be crossed
But if my foot
Steps over that line
How can I be sure
Your standards aren't double
Suspicious of everyone
Trusting no one.

Author's Note

review please :P

Reviews

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

I don't trust certain people for jack s**t. They have the nerve to spread things around when they don't know what your life is like. I loved reading this. I can relate, but I think everyone has trust issues to a point. I mean what are people saying about you behind closed doors? That's what goes around in your mind. Thanks for sharing. :D

[C.C. Marx]

Thank you for reviewing! Its true have you ever wanted to read someones mind, really get to see what there thinking of you?

[Angie Diane♥♥]

Yesh! My coworkers mainly haha.

[C.C. Marx]

Of course or some of my friends.....I sometimes wonder if they truly are my friends you know?

[Angie Diane♥♥]

Yeah, it's terrible. I hate my friends sometimes...especially the day they made me cry....by bringing up a terrible memory...

[C.C. Marx]

Exactl friends shouldn't hurt friends ughhh that reminds me of my lovely ex best friend who I'm not really sure where we stand right now, she was the prodominant muse of this poem

[Angie Diane♥♥]

I see! .-. I'm glad my friends apologized to me....they need to do some major cheering up this weekend for me. I hope we have a lot of fun.

[C.C. Marx]

Good for you! I'm glad they saw how they hurt you, make sure you do something fun for me (its one of those sick days)

[Angie Diane♥♥]

They better. lol
I hope your ex best friends get what she deserves.

[C.C. Marx]

I do too Angie because of all the s**t and anxiety (I have an anxiety issue) she put me through she needs to understand

[Angie Diane♥♥]

Yeah, people like that deserve it....

[C.C. Marx]

And to think only last year she was the one person I told everything to......it kinds scares me how far things went from here to there

[Angie Diane♥♥]

:( that's not good.

[C.C. Marx]

Ya but she wouldn't rat me out on things ive said before, I doubt she remembers, shes pretty wrapped up in her own agenda. This poem was somewhat closure for me, as if ive finally realized I cant trust her like I used to

[Angie Diane♥♥]

I wouldn't trust anyone that has screwed up multiple times. I understand where you are coming from though.

[C.C. Marx]

I don't trust her but I don't hats her its weird its more like I miss the person I thought she was not so much her

[Angie Diane♥♥]

Yeah, I understand.

[C.C. Marx]

Well I'm glad at least one of us can reconcile this holiday season! Although I'm not sure I would want to reconcile at this point

[kelvin]

Its so hard to build or try to trust when all you have experienced has been deceit but this is good and bad for now days everyone just about it seems to have a agenda or scheme to get over on you nice read here as always keep writing

[C.C. Marx]

It really is you're always wondering "can I trust them?" I bottle things up because its just easier thanks for reviewing :)

[KAOlmsted]

I feel like this a lot...especially here. In my day to day life I am very careful with whom I have a conversation, very careful of the things I reveal, and yet on here, I am so very open and trusting...I often marvel at the things I say and to whom I say them, thinking, "Really? Did that just come from ME?" *laugh* Thank you so much for posting this.

-kimmer

[C.C. Marx]

Thank you for reviewing kimmer, everything u said is like my story. I'm constantly censoring myself never saying what I truly feel because I worry about who will say what to who or if something gets back someone but on here, I say things I wouldn't normally be bold enough to share.

[Lady of the Lake]

I can so relate to this! Being afraid that you've said the wrong thing, or that someone will hear what you've said and be offended :S Anyway I really like the rythm of your poem - that it sounds kind of choppy if you pause after every verse - because it reflects the fearjumpy suspicion of the poem very well :)
Keep up the good work! :)

[C.C. Marx]

Thank you!! Ur relation is mine inspiration, one of reasons behind this poem

[Lady of the Lake]

:)

[Rosa Carlyle-Mitchell]

Trust is the hardest thing. This fear, which I share, is so impounding!

[C.C. Marx]

Exactly I fear betrayal so I choose not to trust

[RachelReaper]

it really is hard to trust people nowadays. Some people smile in your face and as soon as you turn your back, they stab it. Very poetic, dripping of betrayal's sour poison.

[C.C. Marx]

Thanks for reviewing Rachel

[Sacha Davison]

I can relate to this. So many people in this world will sell you down the river without hesitating. It's hard to trust anyone these days. It almost seems it's human nature, which is a sad thought indeed. Great write!

[C.C. Marx]

Thanks for stopping by and checking it out :)

[quarintine_deathangel]

Very true. Maybe it's best to not have any secrets in the first place and truely be only yourrself no matter what. Thorugh my experiences it helps and those who attack you run when rebuttled with perfect sense instead of gossip or lies. ^.< Nice write!

[C.C. Marx]

Fair point when contorted most are tongue tied.....thanks for stopping by :)

[C.C. Marx]

*confronted

[Calibaster]

That painted a very real picture. excellent job. :) keep writing!

[C.C. Marx]

Thank very much, will do :)

[Frieda P]

That line is really temperamental, knowing who to trust is a dichotomy in and of itself, then when you think you've got it figured out, it can punch you in the face! Nice write...trust issues, don't even get me started ;)

[C.C. Marx]

Don't I know it! And you 150% right when u think u know someone, they go behind your back and betray you.....thanks for the review :)

[Frieda P]

You're very welcome, been punch, dropped, kicked a few times ;-)

[C.C. Marx]

Haven't we all? Some more than others and some more recently (aka me). I can thank my lovely *said sarcastically* muse of the day for this one

[Frieda P]

Hey, you got some brilliance out of it...

[C.C. Marx]

Awww i appreciate that though I don't completely believe it, still got a lot to work on

[Siren]

I like this. I think it's a very relevant piece, these days. There are very few people who are trustworthy, and the more you say, the more can be held against you with or without you knowing it. Well done!

[C.C. Marx]

Your 110% right thanks for checking it out for me :)

[Siren]

totally welcome (: