And Still

I wrote this for a friend who was thinking about leaving the person she was with. Funny thing is seven years later, they're still together.

The train's at the station and it's about to pull out.
Many thoughts run through my mind but most of them involve leaving you.
They involve leaving you so you don't have a chance to leave me.
Everyone leaves. Everyone leaves me stranded in my mind.
And everyone thinks I can survive on my own.

I'm surviving. I'm surviving because I have to.
But the train's still sitting in the station and I'm seriously about to pull out. 
I look out the window and hope that you'll stop me.
I hope you'll wrap me in your arms and tell me that you can't see yourself without me.
I'll laugh to myself because I already know this to be true.
You cannot be who you are to be without me.

I blame fate. I blame her because she always messes with what we think we know.
And you constantly fight her while I embrace her.
And sometimes my heart goes into nine hundred different directions,
And fate leads me back to what I thought I knew.
Not what I thought in my mind but what I thought with my heart.

I'm in love with you in a way that makes me think I can fly.
Maybe I always thought I could fly but I truly think I can fly now
Because I have you and I absolutely deserve you.
Who knows me better than you?

My heart is trying to escape. First it sits in my throat and I try to swallow it down.
Then it sits in my stomach but doesn't stop beating.
Like the moon it affects the waves and you are churning the stomach acid.
It's about to typhoon and I still have you.
I still love you.
I love you still.

And then when my heart is in my chest, I feel it beat so fast.
I feel my face grow warmer and smile.
I smile because I can't imagine not loving you.
My heart is trying to escape the cage which is my heart.
It's pounding against it and I can't take it anymore.
I don't know if you can relieve the pressure but I'm pretty sure you shouldn't
Let my train pull out of the station.

I'm looking out of the window and if I get a glimpse of you,
A glimpse of someone who even looks like you,
I'll be off this train.
I can't go forward without you.
I can't go forward without you knowing that you are absolutely the one.
Fate brought us together because I asked her to.
I asked her to make things work and to take care of me.
I'm sitting on the train waiting for you to stop it,
But I know it's up to me to get off of this train.
I know I love you.
I know I love you and there's not much more I can be sure about.
I'm sure about you.

I'm sure that I don't want to be looking for anything or anyone else.
I'm sure that you feel exactly the same way.
I'm sure that I can't picture a world without you in it.
Without being tragic or dramatic, I deserve you.
I deserve you in this world.

Please don't let me leave you.
I'll have moments of stupidity and think that I need to leave you.
But while I sit in the train, I'll be sitting waiting for you to stop me.
I want you to stop me.
I want you to stop me from leaving you.
I want you to stop me from falling out of love.
Whatever it may come to, work it out,
Cause I love you.
And of many things that are unsure, I'm just so sure of our love.
I'm just so sure of our love.
So sure of our love.
And I still love you.
I love you still.
I love you
And still.