Dream life

 

  It’s really hard to write something on this crumple paper of my diary today maybe because I will confess truth; I have this habit you see to analyse and then reach to some route cause. I always want to make senses of things put them in perspective and now I just can’t I have no plan no money no boyfriend no person whom I can call mine neither place of my own. My train is running in full force in dark night and lights of building and small houses made it look like pretty painting on canvass of sky. I love the way cool air is throwing itself on my face I feel very much insane or insanely sane, I want this journey to go on go on and take me somewhere far away from this people this city and all my things including my face book account maybe like Alice on some mission somewhere in wonderland. You know those movies where you are really frustrated with something and the hero/heroin scream and ask god and then something change, it make you different person or take somewhere else like in movie 13 to 30, 17 again or freaky Friday or for me this can also work ,simply one angel come from sky and will ask me 1 wish and I’ll tell her to make me Bella swan , this train will take me somewhere magical or somewhere people won’t be so self centred, and disgusting rude arrogant self obsessed, world around you won’t be fuss indulged in destroying each other or run on watch or phones or blackberry messenger more interested in others shattered life than their own, laugh on others and vice versa  here you keep wondering why??? And here people keep make things complicated build their own dreams on someone else’s grave.

  I want to be Bella swan who will find her Edward or Elizabeth from pride and prejudice or coca from one day at time who stay peacefully in north Carolina or cool juno but over all this I wish I could be myself in all this fake people and fake world and cherry over top Stephanie Meyer or Danielle steel don’t write screenplay of my life neither mark water direct it and neither kimaya Dawson give some background music to it. I wish our life will be like our movies at least everything turns right in the end I wish our life won’t be so complicated and over all those wish, I wish people in our life we trust we love won’t make it hard for you. You know which is the filthiest parts you relay on some persons in your life who will stand with you and when it’s time they stand against you. I think we all fight every moment then why we overlook the fact that just like we deserve to be happy others do too.

  Well I don’t know if any storm will come and take me and then next day I will wake up  in beautiful meadow with bag full of chocolates some clothes and money and a dog beside me ( I hate dogs but I trust them more than people now) in front of house small house full of funny things and a simple job don’t know what will be that then one day I will take my dog on walk and I’ll wave to 1 old couple and will ask them how they doing and listen to kimaya Dawson’s song on clean empty peaceful happy streets and bump to some nice guy and we fall in love just like it happens in  Nicolas spark’s book and we will be funny simple and adventures couple we will go on skydiving and trekking together but here is my station why the hell there is no some hidden station between platform......it’s time to get down and yep even I can’t direct my life but still I wish I can.