Go Ahead

this is a poem i wrote after not being able to write anything for months

Go Ahead-January 2, 2011

I sitting here

crying on the inside

I flash a smile, a flirty glance

but on the inside i'm repulsed

I thought I gave up being this

faking emotions because mine arent decipherable

I thought I was being the real me

but here today

I see the truth

im a fake

I do not lie by mouth however

go ahead ask how I am

I will tell you im not ok

touch me on the shoulder

and catch the grimace beneath the 'understanding' smile I have mastered

go head, watch me closely and find the truth

I am falling

deeper than ever before

dont know where i'll end up but it wont be good

I am running out of time to get my self together

and as I try to hold on my nails peel

and soon my fingers are just bone

as I pick the shattered pieces my arms fall off

forbidding my to heal my immune system runs low

I fall ill and begin my final descent into madness

look in my eyes I am gone

I am replaced with a murderous monster

go ahead, get a good look as I fall

see me uncovered

my mask tore to shreds

here I am

metaphorically naked

still like what you see?

Go head, tell me the truth

finally be bold enough to tell me the truth

I know who my am I don't need validation anymore

but out of morbid curiosity

tell me what you see

go ahead, standing here naked I ask tell me who you are.

Author's Note

i stopped writing because my ex-boyfriend ripped out poems from a journal and i could not bring myself to write anymore
please ignore my grammar

Reviews

[Taste of Insanity]

thanks for your support.

[Christie Moses]

Painful and real...
Never let anyone stop you from writing.

[Jaide]

this is so heavy&dark...
i like it.
(: