Looking Up, Below

You can go back and forth from having feelings and not feeling at all. Sometimes it’s easier to feel nothing, then there’s nothing to lose. No hope means no hurt. But what’s life without hope?

Looking Up, Below 

I am starting again to feel 

I almost forgot it was real 

To go from darkness, black 

To have some light come back 

I don’t know which was worse 

I think feeling may be a curse 

To feel again is dangerous, bad 

To only go back to what I had 

I know this warmth won’t last 

I never had it stay in the past 

 

To only go back to before, cold 

To know how it felt to be gold 

 

I am scared to lose it once more 

I don’t want it to be done for 

 

To feel vulnerable again, open 

To only get pain and broken 

 

I want to feel with no heartache 

I don’t want any risks to take 

 

To fall down when I’m up, high 

To know I am not able to fly 

 

I can’t fall again if I never rise 

I stay down and look at skies 

 

To not hurt I have to stay, remain 

To not think what I could gain 

 

I try to forget my feelings for you 

I go back to living how I used to 

 

To only wish on the stars above 

To wonder if it’s worth it, love