I think this is an excellent question. Not just religious individuals, but people in general often expect others to do or think what they are told, but never think to give an explanation. I really like the idea for this poem, and think you are quite brave for writing it.
I'm one that's not afraid to leave this earth. Saying that, every morning I wakeup, this is the question I ask. "WHY?"
I don't know why things happen in the crossroads of each of our lives. If i would not of had the gran mal seizure I had two years ago September, my family almost loosing me I would not be writing the poems I'm writing.
Something happen in this brain of mine that caused me to want to write like I do. I never liked poetry and I never thought I would enjoy writing everyday.
My biggest fear is having another seizure and not having the ability to write, having it all taken away.
I would rather be taken in my sleep leaving what I have written, than to survive and not write.
Can't tell you how many times I have asked the same question... I still don't know the answer but I am sure eventually I will get my answer... when I'm ready...