Shhh

Wrote this on thanks giving

You know your alone when holidays aren't special anymore
When your thanks giving dinner is eating macaroni in front of your computer
Alone
When the only Christmas present you get is the one you bought your self
When the only reason you want to celebrate your birthday is because you're one step closer to death
You know your alone when that dinner table is empty and the silence is welcoming.
You know your alone when You have to keep telling yourself that your happy like this
I'm alone
I've been alone and to be honest. It doesn't matter anymore because even if I was surrounded by people eating that slaughtered turkey and laughing over terrible jokes is still be alone. So what's the difference between the the sound of your fake laughing and the silence I'm hearing now