Hesitation in Traffic, Church

Have you ever been commited to someone, but love someone else? Maybe a little funny, more wistful than anything.

 

As the lights flew past me

I actually wondered why I felt so blank,

Then I smiled without laughing and whispered your name.

       Aahhhh, drama –

But don’t go swelling that head,

 Then I shook mine and breathed

Not ready.

                    So here am I,

             Alone,

          Existing in cold, empty space –

Then I blinked and for three full minutes considered calling

For a playmate.

          I held back all that saline threatening to flood,

                  Not knowing why the urge was so great.

I keep coming back to you!

      Even now:

            In this chair, in this noise,

I glaze and sniff and hear

   (in the distance)

the name of the LORD.

Earlier I wished for happiness.

                (and Kenny Holland)