What is sustainable love?

If something sustainable is described as : avoidance of the depletion of resources in order to maintain a balance, What's sustainable love?

What's sustainable love? How much can I give away without robbing myself of feelings I should experience every damn day, not just for this mundane, empty day? How many times do I swallow my pride, bend myself in half to make room for someone else’s needs, while my own sit gathering dust, forgotten?

What’s a lasting dream? How far can I run, chasing it relentlessly, before I lose everything that grounds me, everything that keeps me sane in this harsh reality? How much sleep do I sacrifice, staying up through the night convincing myself that one more hour, one more sacrifice, will make it all worth it�"when does that actually happen? Does it ever happen, or is this just a cruel joke I’m too scared to question?

What’s a friendship worth? How much of myself do I pour out for others, only to be left with nothing but hollow echoes when I need someone to stand with me, here, now? I keep reaching out, asking, begging for someone to understand, but all I get back is silence. Just silence. And I wonder, when did I become disposable, just another name on their list of people to forget?

What’s passion, really? How long can I let it drive me, push me to the brink, before I burn out, before it strips me of every ounce of quiet peace I thought I had left? I used to love this, didn’t I? Now it feels like a cage, a ticking bomb, and I wonder if I’m the one who built it, brick by brick, pretending it was ambition while it’s been suffocating me all along.

How long do I keep giving away these pieces of myself, pretending that this is how it’s supposed to be�"like I’m a well that never runs dry, like I can handle it all? Because I’m not handling it, I’m drowning.

What’s sustainable love? How much can I give away before I’m left empty, drained, feeling nothing, while everyone else takes and takes and I’m the one left questioning what I even have to hold onto anymore?