Downfall

The downside to love

the tension of that moment
was as thick as could be
the two women of my worrld
stood just before me
one merely a friend
at least that's how it began
needing an ear to listen
a friend, just to understand
and the other
well, she's my heaven on earth
couldn't place a price on her love
we've been connected since birth
with the friend,
I held that companionship that I needed
when I felt I was trapped in a bottle
just the sound of her voice would set me free
no pressure in the instances that mattered most
she was my rock, my anchor
the words to this note
breathless,
she was my air
helium type love
with her.....I seemed to float
it felt alot like love as soon as we first spoke
to have you back though.....
I can only wish,
I can only pray,
I can only hope....
I desire the haunting of my friend's ghost
if absence was ever known to kill
shall I die ever so slow.

as for my heaven on earth
how could I make her cry
my love is truly you
your smile kept me alive
everyday with you became the best of my life
my heart's counterpoint was you
more sure than positive you were destined to be my wife
day to day devotion to keep you happy inside
all except for what really mattered to you most
you wished, hinted, and deserved to be my bride
by my side through my life's wins and loses
I forgot how beautiful you were to me
I forgot we were together in this love thing
I forgot exactly who the boss is
but if I never see you again
I pray you never forget
that it is in you where my heart lives

now I sit alone in this empty room
counting all the mistakes that I once made
wishing there was something that could be done
wanting the gray clouds in my head to fade
feeling like a prisoner within myself
locked down and abused by my thoughts
markings on the cell walls only indicate
day one of month one.......sentenced to a decade
of solitary confinement
in consequence of the game of love misplayed

now I find it that
I can't sleep
at all
because she won't text
because she won't call
it seems that trying to have everything at once
only set me up in reality
for my greatest physical, mental, and emotional downfall......