Conflicting Remembrance

conflictions

It hurts to see you

It hurts to hear your name

It hurts to think about you

I want so badly to forget

Then, maybe

Some of the pain will stop

I hate being reminded of you

Of us

I ache with loss

I want to delete the memories 

Because now I don't have the joy

The happiness

I only have the echo

Of something once there

But now gone

And at the same time

I cling to every remaining piece of us

Every event and memory we shared

I had something real

Something good for a while

I don't want to face reality

That the good is over

I don't want it to be over

I don't want to forget

How happy you made by

But instead

How sad and lonely I am now