Gamble Gone Wrong

sometimes you take a chance. sometimes you fly. and sometimes, you're dropped to the depths of hell

I bet everything on this

On us

I thought that we would be enough

A distraction

From my dark side

You would be enough

To pull me out

Into a fantasy

Something I could believe to be my reality

Somewhere it didn't hurt so much

You seemed like you could help

Like you could make things better

As though I could lean on your shoulder 

And we could walk together

But you kept me trapped instead

You suffocated me

Playing with my mind and heart

Games I couldn't win

Why would you waste your time

Pretending to help me? 

Pretending to help when all you did was

Push me down farther

Deeper into my pain

Into all of the things

That I hoped to escape? 

You forced me under

Slammed the door 

Closed the lock

And didn't even glance back

Why would you do that to me

Make the cracks bigger

When I had hoped that you would be 

The one to seal them

And make them disappear? 

I'm just wondering why

You would get my hopes up

Bring in the possibility

Of a bright future

When you knew you wouldn't 

Make any effort to help me 

Get there?