No Way To Truly Show It

for those who don't have a way to express what is inside, threatening to come out in the worst way possible

I want to write about pain

The pain you cause me

The pain I bring on myself

The horror film titled "My Life" 

But no language can capture the way I feel

No string of words can express the terror in which I live

Me, all alone, dying inside

With no way to show it

It's a thousand needles in my heart

Shoved into my skin by my mother's hand

A chorus of laughter behind me

Sharp stabs that no mother should inflict

It's questioning who I am

Wondering what these signs mean

As others figure it out so easily

And society tries to change me

It's falling in love with my best friend

And knowing they'll never be mine

It's watching them fall for someone else

Pretending it doesn't hurt so much

It's trying, every second, but continuing to fail

The slap from my father, the glare of my brother

It's the absence of my grandmother and my own lack of faith

It's searching, searching, searching, but never reaching

Sometimes I wonder why I continue to go through the motions

All I feel is pain, all I get is hurt

I see people with their smiles and laughter and I wonder

Are they hiding too? 

Reviews

[Alucard6336]

I could tell you life is pain, but what would that help.

I care about you, as I do everyone. Make what you will of it.

I'm Bryan, also known as Bryan the Dark, which is a title that is idiomatic.

You have a long life ahead of you, and this poem has talent behind it.

Nicole, if I may call you that, you ever need a friend, confidant, or guide, I am here for you.

I like this, one thing that may interest you is turn the tale into something.....surreal.

I am sorry for your pain.

[Nicole Schuster]

Thanks. That means a lot