Heart's Beat

When i have everything in my grasp
why do my hands feel empty
The gold in my pocket is nothing but dirt
The shining coat is filthy

I feel so tired, so tired, but i can never sleep
and wake up to a world bright and gay
I feel like i'm drowning myself
and i can't push the feeling away

Sleep, sleep why won't you come?
Just ease this throbbing mind
End my self suffering and self disgust
end this horrible self demise

I cannot turn from the mirror of dreams
I cannot stop this falling
So long have thorns been in me
So long have these voices been calling

Why can my hands not write the words
that i know are resting inside
and why can my fingers not draw the face
that in my heart does lie?

My all seeing jewels are tainted with mud
and my tongue is barbed and rough
So much have i wished for that steady rope
yet that wishing is never enough

So go i now with a twisted soul
and twisted thoughts with twisted words
My heart is heavy with an unknown burden
pining and moaning all the worst
 

Author's Note

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Reviews

[lostboy]

i have felt this way when i loose hope and faith in myself its good to know im not alone i guess we are never really alone no matter where we are someone has been thier before us feeling the same things so at least we can have hope in the fact that nothing lasts forever except Gods love

[Geralyn Miller]

Exudes bleakness, all the possessions and honors in the world do not provide piece of mind--the most valuable of all treasures.

[Moonflower]

everything is dirty gray...excellent sense of painful, bleak expressions.

[Caitlynxoxo]

Aw, beautiful poem; very fluid. I liked the description you used, painting the reader a picture of the character's sort of anxiety towards escaping the world they've been born into :)

"My heart is heavy with an unknown burden
pining and moaning all the worst"

Very nice way to end it. Thanks for sharing!!

xoxo Caitlyn xoxo