Time to go...

 

 

 I remember the scene,  

so vividly,

the Tears

streaming

slowly

down my cheeks

the look on your face

the way your lips moved

as you began to speak

these words

and how

they came

flowing freely

out from your mouth

and they would soon explain,  

what all of  your awkward

fidgeting and stammering were all about...

    

"I don’t love you anymore"

and it was just like that...

I guess it was time  for you now,

to  trim the fat....

 

and tunnel vision set in

and I felt that  uneasy

nauseating feeling 

deep from within

and  thoughts zoomed  madly

rushing through my  head

as i kept

trying to

accept these words

that  you just had  said...

 

and I held my self back

from screaming

from crying

from shouting out

and  cursing  the sun

for rising up

and creating this  day,

the one, on which

you realized

 

that your love for me had gone away....

 

and to be honest 

i think 

i would rather have  come to discover

that you had been  seduced into bed

by some other lover

or if 

 between us there  had been some awful  fight

where neither of us

 would ever again 

  be able 

to  find the right  words 

to  make  things again   right

 

and when you tell me that

upsetting me was something

you will  always regret

well

you might as well take that spoon

and stab it into my neck

because don’t you dare try to empathize with me

and tell me

that you too, also feel pain

because

there is no possible way

that at this very moment

we are truly feeling the same

 

and do you realize now

that i will be constantly  examining our past

 and going  

completely insane...

trying  to piece together

when it was

that

Everything between us

Became nothing but lies

And  when it was

that

Your actions and words

twoards me

Became nothing more 

Then some merciful disguise

 

SO 

Do you know

when it was  

when  you realized

that

my kisses on your  neck

could

no longer make you shiver?

And my fingers tickeling  your spine

would

no longer make you quiver ?

And when did you no longer

long

to whisper sweet nothings into my ear,

and when did you

cringe at the  thought of holding me near?

 

And can you  actually admit

that when

you were sleeping  next to me

in our bed at night

that you would rehearse these words

the ones you just now  said  

that you thought

could somehow make this all seem alright?

 

 but there is no reason

 

for me

to argue

Or  to even put up a fight

Because

How can  I possibly argue

with you

about something

that for you 

just no longer

 feels  right...

 

 and so there really is

nothing left

for me

to do or say

except now

collect myself and  

just walk away 

but i guess i can admit

that  

I now rightfully know 

 that you may  never

 know

 when  love 

may  come for you

or

when it  may decide

         it is  time for it to go....  

 

 

Reviews

[Elwina]

Incredibly put again, hurtful, we can feel so well... how you feel !
"collect myself and just walk away" : after all you said, this really summarizes it brilliantly. I love your poems.