Walls

 

 

- I hide

inside my safety box

And endure this much needed

life detox

 

And I hide behind

These  mountains I built

As I bathe in my own

pathetic guilt

The guilt from always being

so blind and naive

The guilt from always

Letting myself

Too easily

- believe

 

So I built these walls up

all around me

Bricks of betrayal,

doubt, fear and pain

are all around me

And I created these barriers

to keep you out

After discovering

too many times

what heartbreak

and betrayal

were all about

 

And you can view me

as a wounded animal

Too scared to let anyone know

All there is to me

And you can say

 that I may be

my own worst enemy

fearing the worst

for whatever may come to be

but this is just how

 it now

 has to be for me

 

 

 

So please

do not try to get inside

or think

I will eventually

divulge my weaknesses

 My truths

that i now

try so hard

to desperately hide

 

Too many times

already

I let my guard down

and then on my own tears

I shamefully drowned

And too many times

I have been made the fool

Overlooking

That most of this world

would rather be cruel

 

So now

I am taking these lessons

that I painfully learned

after feeling the pain

from when I was burned

 

And now

I abandon  that hopeful girl

that I used to know

and to

trust and belief

 I sadly let go

As

behind these walls

I bow down low…..

Reviews

[beancountersar]

Very heartfelt self-protective description. We all are this way to some degree I think..very wonderful poem!