A little bit better...A Poem by Stephanie S
- so I woke up today, and I gladly can say that I am finally feeling a little bit better - a little more like myself ever since you went away
I finally decided it was time for me to climb up out of this mess and try to find a way to make this all hurt a little bit less
so i decided I am no longer going to sit around and desperately wait for you to call Or try to convince myself I still might hear your foot steps out in the hall
And I am not going to let myself be overtaken and feel that sharp pain Everytime I hear someone mention your name
I decided it was time to stop acting so sad and to no longer fight myself when I admit that maybe your leaving wasn't really so bad
and I am through with holding back and not allowing myself to move on Or denying the truth - That you REALLY are gone
And I am done trying to figure out what it was that made things go wrong And I am no longer blaming myself for us not getting along
And I am not going to keep analyzing all the words that you said Or allow you to still control every thought that goes through my head
And i am no longer going to deny that our bad days started to out number the good And that too many times too often I felt unappreciated and misunderstood And I am no longer going to be blind to see that you started treating me ways that no one ever should and how you started doing things I never thought you would
There is not a reason for me to sit here and cry anymore Or think i might die if i never see your face walk back through that door and I can finally admit i was foolish for thinking that you were "the one" and that my heart and affection never again could be won
and i am so sick of letting everything that i see remind me of you and I am finished with constantly thinking about all of the things that we used to do.... and If you think l am going to continue to be so lovesick and Distraught And that your leaving me has left me completely overwrought Well you can go ahead now And just forget it! Because I am no longer permiting myself to be so damn pathetic!
and I am finally thankfully able to see That i don't need you in my life to really be happy And without you now I will be just fine, - my heart will heal i just needed some time
- So I am forbidding myself to ever again think of you or let myself hope and pray that you might find a way to love me again and I am now forcing all of this sulking and pining for you ti come to an end... and it is feeling pretty damn good now I must confess As I notice my dazzling sparkling success and I am missing you each day now Less and less…
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Added on August 8, 2008 Last Updated on August 18, 2008 AuthorStephanie Sny, NYAbout"I want to feel passion, i want to feel pain, i want to weep at the sound of your name....come make me laugh, come make me cry,,,just make me feel alive!" i find myself writing from time to time, an.. more..Writing
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