In my memory.....

 

 

 

 

 

 

- Love with an expiration date,

Right from the start ,

we knew our doomed fate.

 

and so we started this off,

with limited time

and I rightfully knew

that right from the start,

you were never "truly"

mine...

 

and sometimes i would think,

was this all

some big  mistake?

Was I insane

To put my heart

and My feelings

like this

all out there

on the line?

 

but

I wouldn’t hold back

I let myself go

Avoiding the truth

- And the pain

That I would

undoubtedly

Come to know.

 

And yes

I let myself go

i loved

and

lived every moment with you

not conformed by any

boundaries

I was overtaken

And bewildered

By this feeling

that

I would sometimes think

Deceivingly

found me.

 

 

And I would not listen to others,

to thier warnings

 

to thier advice

or when

I was constantly told

that

my actions were foolish

- far from logical

and

certainly  not

courageous or bold

 

- i did not care

even after,

I realized,

there was no way to stop

or slow down

the passing of days

and that we were destined

to evuntually have

to go

our separate ways

 

and

and yes it hurts

when I re-live having to say

those final words

that we once spoke

and i was convinced

that

life thought it would be funny

to make love play on me

some sort of cunning joke....

 

and now i look back,

feeling,

Nostalgic,

reflective and sad,

 

I am Never,

regretful

Scornful or mad

And when it hurts a little too much

I close my eyes and imagine your touch

And sometimes at night,

when I am feeling alone,

I close my eyes to see ur face

And I go back

to "our special place"

to that brief moment in time

When we shared sweet bliss

and I close eyes

 to taste your kiss

 

And it comforts me

to think

you took

a piece of me

that still resides  with you

just like that piece of you

that will always be with  me...

 

And no matter what,

You will forever be

a part of me

and

no matter what

you are

Still alive

Deep inside me

and i pray you sometimes

somehow hear me

when

i say

"good night,

I will always

miss you my love"

but ,

"I

will

see you in my memory ."