Again

 I lay my head, 
Against your chest, 
And feel it rise and fall 
I bury myself 
In side your arms, 
And indulge myself, 
with your familiar scent. 
There is no other place, 
In this whole wide world, 
That I would rather be. 
You tickle me, 
And playfully tease me, 
Then gently comb out my hair, 
We talk about nothing, 
For hours, 
And hours, 
Then you softly, 
Kiss me on the forehead, 
And I am overtaken- 
By this overwhelming 
Indescribable, 
Feeling of content 
That is, 
Impossible to describe. 


Until I open my eyes, 
And I am alone , 
Again, 
In my cold, dark, bedroom, 
Where a few streams of moon light, 
Make their way, 
Through my window, 
And I glance over , 
To your empty side of the bed, 
And think maybe, 
If I squint my eyes hard enough, 
I can almost make out , 
Your silhouette, 
On the cold crisp sheets. 
And I instinctively, 
Go to roll over, 
Into your arms, 
But reality sets in, 
Who am I kidding? 
You have not touched that spot, 
In over 9 months now, 
And I am lying here, 

All
alone, 
And now, 
Once, Again, 
I am scared to close my eyes, 
And enter back, 
Into my world of dreams. 

Because every time, 
I close my eyes, 

I must,

 relive our memories , 
all over Again, 
And then I awaken, 
To realize one more time,
You are no longer

here by my side, 
And I have to feel that , 
Gut wrenching, 
Sickening , 
Devastating, 
Indescribable pain, 
that I felt , 
After losing you... 
All over- 
Again. 

Reviews

[Antony]

Wow, you express your emotions so clearly in this piece and they are devastating and sad, I like your words, gut wrenching, sickening indescribable pain...Very powerful, At times we can get so heart broken when we lose love and our minds can think of nothing else. Nice job Stephanie.
Antony