My Sexuality

This is a poem about a girl shamed for her sexuality

My parents have always loved me

They spoiled me with all the riches a child could ask for 

But for only one reason

It wasn’t a treatment of love, it was a treatment of disgust

They were disgusted with who I was

All I was, was a teenage girl

16 almost 17

I had great grades

I’ve never done drugs or drank or had sex

I’ve been a great child all these years

Just one thing has set them off the top

Despite all my good qualities, they settled on one that wasn’t even bad

My sexuality

They’ve never approved, but it’s because they don’t understand

I hate labels, but I’ve accepted mine

I identify as a panromantic asexual

I know it sounds difficult

But I promise you I’m just like everyone else

All it means is that I am willing to date anyone regardless of gender

I’m very open to the idea of love

But not to sex

It doesn’t mean that I’ll never have sex and that I find it repulsive

That’s what people don’t understand

It just happens to be one thing that’s rare to my mind

My parents seem to think that buying my things will automatically “turn” me straight

Don’t get me wrong though my parents aren’t bad people

They support gay rights

They just don’t want to ever see their daughter as that kind of person, and they think I have some made up sexuality. 

I’ve never bothered to explain it to my parents more than once

Because all they do when I bring it up is yell at me 

I just go on living my life as the poster child that they let shine

But I’ve never been able to friends over

That is, of the same sex

My parents seem to think that if we go to my room that I’m most likely making out with them instead of a wholesome board game 

My friends are just my friends

And that is it

Just because I have a sexuality that isn’t straight, and I’m willing to date anyone, doesn’t mean I want to date everyone

Just another misconception in the commons

Never worthy of explanation, because it’s very simplistic, just people never take the chance to understand

It’s worse than trying to explain bisexuality to someone

People seem to think if you are bisexual, then you’re s****y because you like both genders

Or have you ever heard the idea that a guy can’t be bisexual, because as some people like to look at it how can you get fucked in the a*s, but then kiss a girl

Because excuse me for not knowing that everybody is just up for sex, and they switch from gender to gender each day and don’t actually stay in a relationship

So only you can imagine explaining to someone how you are open to more than just the cis male or cis female genders

But as you can see it’s not even my sexuality that is a misconception

It’s all of the queer community, all of those being denied their rights

My parents are just in this line waiting for answers that they aren’t getting because they aren’t willing to hear them because it’s never what they want to hear

So come on join the misfits club of loving who you want and being denied the love from someone close because they deem it as a sin and unacceptable.