Lost at Sea

A lost love

What a wonderful thing it is to have loved

I loved you without a single regret

You were the other half of me

But I never meant that much to you, I see

But don’t worry. I’ll be okay

You have moved on from our thunderous love

I was the wrecked ship at sea you chose to handle

So please don’t worry. I understand why you left

We are now asunder, and you’re floating further away. 

I’ve had no contact with you since

I’m trying to get through this

But I just can’t do it all by myself

I’ve always had you by my side when I needed you

Of all that I know, I just don’t know how to be something you’ll never miss

I was like the color red, a bloody mess from hell

I learned that from you. You always talked about traveling to London.

Can’t you see how much I miss you?

You were blue, like the sea, the sea that I’m stuck in, and can’t find my way out of

Although, I’m not sure if I do want to 

Purple will always be my favorite color, because that remind me of you, of us

But there is no such thing

Not anymore

You were my first kiss, my first love

How do you expect me to move on?

I’m still swimming, but I’ve realized that there is no way out

Even when I manage to forget you, you’ll always be a though in the back of my mind

You’ve become my biggest fear

Seeing you without wanting to love you again or hating you is too much

You were my sunshine after every storm

But now you are the reason for my storms, and you’re leaving me without a rainbow, a happy ending that I need 

The only happy ending for me is to have you again

I’ve been telling you not to worry, but that’s all I’m doing

How hypocritical of me

Maybe that’s why you left

Maybe I’ve been overthinking this

Maybe I’m just a storm of judgement that became too much

I’m just one big storm stopping you from seeing the sunshine, and you don’t deserve that, you deserve the sunshine.

But why can’t you look at me as if I am your sunshine

Get rid of my storms, my troubled thoughts of ever losing you, and make me your new found light, the sunshine you deserve

Without you I have no sunshine, and I never will

Now I am just my storms

Lost at sea

Waiting for you to come back and find me

But you aren’t

So I plug my nose, and stick my head under water, looking for my sunshine once more

There is no sunshine, but there is a light

I swim towards the light

No sunshine for me, but happiness at last

I have nothing to worry about anymore

Because I know I’ll find you. My sunshine you aren’t gone anymore, and I’m back for you.

I’m here to be with you

I love you.