Sometimes I wonder

probably the longest poem I've ever written. Um. the history or reason i wrote this is a little private.

Sometimes I wonder,

What it is I’m thinking.

But I give up and stare at the sky,

Slightly breathing, barely blinking.

 

The moon shines down,

Its celestial beams.

Nothing to say,

Nothing to feel but dreams.

 

A wish can be devastating,

As much as an overwhelming desire.

I wish everything would stop,

I long to put out the fire.

 

I sit and such acid tears flow,

They fall to the ground,

Burning endless holes.

 

A little kiss of magic,

Sends a surge through the air,

A little bit of lust,

I laugh, it seems like an affair.

 

I sway with the ever blowing wind,

A tribal march is heard.

Carries on with the gentle breeze,

I can hear every word.

 

When time as we know it,

Slows down and is in decline,

This feeling of tearing apart,

Yet everything is just fine.

 

Ripping and tearing,

My thoughts float away from me,

As gentle butterflies fluttering aloof,

Sing a chaotic song, and I can’t see.

 

The hourglass sand falls upward.

Time stands completely still.

Breeching, and mocking,

Our precious own free will.

 

Everything spins in centrifugal motion,

Everything is an illusionary dream.

Filled with unknown emotions,

Nothing quite as they seem.

 

Demons and angels fly and run rampant,

Confusion spreads rapidly,

Evil eyes and faces glare,

Sly grins sneer crookedly.

 

Vulgar thoughts cloud my mind.

Obsessive, compulsive details fly,

Leaving everything infected alone.

They brush my lips, and pass me by.

 

As I feel a life cross the river Styx,

All hope I had wished to feel is lost.

Charon laughs as though its humor,

But death becomes fear, discarded and tossed.

 

A surreal desire fills my mind,

To feel what that soul felt and endured.

I stare in wonder at both the sides,

As I linger between what’s past and what’s future.

 

I abruptly snap my eyes open,

I see the stars I missed.

No longer in another realm,

No longer in my mind’s twist.

 

The breeze still blows softly,

I hear magic echoes in a wind’s coil.

I feel the tense memories of battles past,

Souls that left in constant turmoil.

 

And so brings back the thought,

Of nothing there to feel inside.

It’s there, but I should know,

If it’s not different, it’s harder to find.

 

 

Author's Note

hope you enjoyed it.

Reviews

[Serenedy]

I don't know what is was or what it is that you're going through. All I know is that this poem is from the heart. A good poet writes about their emotions and a great poet doesn't censor who they are in their poetry. You are a great poet. You take all the difficulties in your life and make sence of them with words. There is no limit to a person's creative ability. I can deffinately see that you are one of those people that have a vast depth to their personality. When I was in highschool I started writing for fun. I told my mom that I wanted to be a famous writer but I wanted to stay anonymous. (with all the crap that's going on in the celeb world, who whould blame me) She said, but if you write something, you wont get the credit for it. I said I don't care if I get the credit for it as long as I inspire someone. The best payment in the world is the satisfaction you get when someone enjoys your work and decides to return the favor and inspire someone else.

I have a poem called Good vs. Bad. It talks about the difference between good days and bad days. I think you're going to like it.
Again, fascinating work; you are really talented. :)

[J Carly]

Wishes, dreams, desires, all very well expressed here. I enjoyed reading this very much. The first stanza is a great opener, it draws the reader in and allows them to take the narrator's place throughout the piece. I especially loved the last line of that first stanza, because it begs the reader to ask such questions as why? and what? and who? Captivating write here. You've made the first cut, sis, and I wouldn't be surprised if this gem made it to the finals.

[thecoolone52]

my favorite part was the second to last stanza....... it has the best rhyme sceme and best vocab......... i really enjoyed this one....... very different and has a dreamy cloud like feeling to it.......... smashingggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i enjoyed it