Chapter 2A Chapter by SIsarmentoWelcome home FreidaTo my
relief, it was Briar who had opened the door. I was taken a back at the man
that was standing before me; he aged, but aged beautifully. He was more built,
a big change from his previous overweight appearance when I had left 4 years
ago. His brown hair was shorter than I remembered, he had a buzz cut, he was
handsome, but I could see the creases, and wrinkles surrounding his eyes, it
looks like stress got the best of him, but he had an amused look on his face. “Briar!!” I
was surprised at the tone of my own voice, and even more surprised when I found
myself jumping into his arms. He was surprised by my embrace, it even took him
a moment for him to return the hug. “Shut up
Briar, sorry I can’t help it, when you don’t see your family for 4 years, you
start missing them” “Right, get
in here, get settled, I was just headed out to the gym” “Yeah fish
head, times a changing, it explains the new muscles” showcasing his physique.
Fish head was a nick name I got when we were younger, my brothers and I would
play fight a lot, and one time, when my brothers were violently hitting me with
pillows, I thought it would be a great idea to grab the raw tilapia fish from
the sink that my mother was about to cook. When I swung the fish, it missed my
brother and I wacked myself in the head with it. Thus, the nickname. I let my
brother and mother converse as I leave them at the door to walk around the
house. The house felt so familiar, yet so different. It’s liked I stepped into
the twilight zone, I left for a reason and I came back for the sake of my
mother’s sanity. The first room I entered was the living room, nothing much has
changed, still the same tanned colored carpet, wooden coffee table, with
mismatched coasters, couches covered with brown polyester fabric, with
oversized cushions. Cobie was resting on the white rug near the wooden
fireplace. The only real change I had noticed was the new TV above the
fireplace, 60 inches in size. Wow… that’s new. The photos
on the wall were still the same, a photo of me from my high school graduation, and
one photo of Briar at his high school graduation, and the next one next to
Briar’s was a photo of Garrett at his high school graduation. My mother
arranged our three photos from youngest, me, to oldest, Briar. I stared at
Garrett’s photo, Garrett was the black sheep of the family, my mother and
father don’t like to talk about it, but I believed he was autistic. He isolated
himself in many social settings, and when he was in engaged in social
situations he was quite awkward, telling weird facts about airplanes, but I was
very fond of him, I had a deep connection with him that I couldn’t explain. We
spent a lot of our childhood days playing with the planes he built from his
Lego pieces and we would read a lot of books to each other before bedtime. He
moved out when he learned of the news I was leaving for the San Fernando. He
was living with some of his frat brothers on campus nearby, from the letters he
used to write me, he was happy for me and he was even happier he broke free
from the family and try independent living. He stopped mailing me, after 2
years into my program, I assumed he was busy with school, and I myself, was too
busy to inquire why his letters stopped, but I knew I would see him this
holiday. Within the
living room, was the dining area in the far right, a long wooden family table
with matching dark oak wooden chairs, and a table that fit up to 8 people. In
the middle was my moms basket center piece of fake fruits, and god awful
Christmas decorations surrounding it, white cotton that was broken apart to
imitate snow, with a baby Jesus right inside the faux fruit bowl. I moved my
way through the two-way wooden door and I was in the kitchen. The smell of
baked goods, turkey, mash potatoes, fruit salad, corn, peas almost had me fall
to my knees. Finally a home cooked meal, I whispered to myself. “You hungry
Fish head?” My mom peeked in through the door. “Well I’m glad my nick name is
being put to good use again” I smile. “If you can’t wait, go on and eat”. I make my
way up the wooden stairs, the creaks still audible as I walk slowly up to my
room. I make a
sharp right, and before me is the doorway to my past, where I spent most days
either talking on the phone, crying, reading, my safe haven from all the hurt
that has caused me. My piece of sanctuary in the middle of the chaos I left
behind. I hesitantly open the door because maybe I don’t want to relive my
memories. As I enter, the first thing I noticed was my queen sized oak bed,
with black iron vine bars as my headboard. I dropped my keys, and bags on the
floor, and fell back on my bed and stared at my ceilings, slowly counting the
bumps on the ceiling, and then I drifted to sleep. I dreamed. I dreamed of a small room, with my
father staring at me, holding a woman’s hands. Those hands did not belong to my
mother. I inched closer and closer, if disappointment had a name, it would be
my face. I stared into his eyes, and I wanted so much to scream, and tell him
how disgusted I was of him. I stared into the woman’s eyes, no she was not my
mother, but her face was all too familiar. I awoke with
a jolt, I sat straight up, still in the clothes I was wearing when my mother
picked me up from the bus station, jacket still on too. I made my way to my
bathroom, luckily, my own private bathroom, connected to my room. I took my
jacket and clothes off, and jumped into the shower. The hot water hitting my
skin was like heaven. Once my shower was finished, I dried my hair with a towel
and put some of old pajamas on, ones I had left behind when I left for nursing
school. I turned on my mac laptop to find 40 emails from my classmates,
instructors, and e-bills. I shut my computer to sleep and found myself
famished. I made my way out of my room, when I heard creaking and giggling from
up the farthest room from my room. It was coming from the guest bedroom. I
inched closer and closer to the noise and saw that the door was slightly open.
Then, blood drained from my face, and I could feel myself light headed. I heard
moaning. Without any
hesitation I ran to my room, and slammed the door shut. I could hear muffling,
and the guest door opening, the moaning stopped, but all I wanted to do was
escape. I locked my bedroom door, and ran into my washroom, and locked the door
to it as well. I put my hands on both sides of my ears to block out any more
noises, like a mantra I repeated to myself, go
back to sleep, go back to sleep. After what
felt like hours, I succumbed to my grief, anxiety and anger and submitted to
the darkness as I fell back to sleep. © 2017 SIsarmento |
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Added on March 1, 2017 Last Updated on March 1, 2017 AuthorSIsarmentoVancouver, Kitsalano , CanadaAboutI've always wanted to follow my dreams and share my stories, whether it was through screen plays or novels. I have a passion to share stories, and I hope you enjoy mine. I post just the beginning of m.. more..Writing
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