The Ex-Factor

A Story by sincerlyryan

"(keep going in circles, circles)round and round,and while your doing me so wrong i just keep holding you down"

No words could've been more real
Once upon a time i thought you were the real deal
I told you how i feel
Yet you still,
Continue to inflict these cuts that won't heal
After Ive been used,by you
You leave me confused and battered and bruised in the mind and heart and soul
But every time you say go i go.
You know i damn near live for you
I've always been here for you

(please excuse me because I'm about to start ranting)
But I'm still your plan B and C
How do i become an A
I forgive you every time even though i have open wounds
And you come back before they even have time to heal
But i wouldn't even try to let them heal because you'd just inflict more
I sat there by you when you were going through your "singles syndrome".
Your just like them all,Said you were different.Take it back.
I ate your lies for breakfast lunch and dinner.At the time they filled me up
With hopes you'd one day love me.Which made me so happy.
I said i wouldn't do this ever again after the last one but i did.
This could all be so simple but you'd rather make it hard.
TRYING to love you is like a battle.And we both end up with scars,some deeper than others.I just wish you'd stop pretending to care to temporarily see me smile
I don't wanna die on the inside any more.
So leave!Go away!Don't ever come back!
Wait,don't go!
you run to the fakes that will only treat you half as good as i can.
Your so blind to the truth.I've always been the one there
When everyone you thought was true left you high and dry.
Where were you when IIIIIII needed you.
But this is like preaching to the choir.You know all this already
Should i give up or just keep chasing what feels like a pipe dream.?
I'll bite my tongue around you from now on.Don't think i didn't try to be there.
YOU pushed ME away this time.It's funny how it used to be the other way around.
I see my own fault in this.Goodbye?Why even waste my time saying goodbye
Because you know I'll never leave you.
This s**t is takin all my energy.Give me my soul back!For now i'm done.
The only way you can have me is if you love me back into your life.