Un-confuse.

My state of mind in its most raw form.

There was a constant buzz inside her head, a never-ending rush of thoughts,
It was exhausting, it was like a beeping sound that never stopped playing.
It was confusing yet calming- the thoughts,
It was like white noise, there was a lot of it but felt strangely normal.

Thoughts, feelings, actions and imagination were all crossing paths,
It was all so fast, they didn't even acknowledge the other.
I was hoping for it to make sense, hoping for all of it to add up and get me to a conclusion,
But they just zoomed away, leaving it all dusty and difficult to interpret.

There was positivity and negativity, but the timing was off, they crashed together and burnt away,
There was happiness, sadness even, along with confusion of what to feel first.
There was the goodness of heart and selfishness of the mind, the subconscious in a constant dilemma of which to side.

There are battles playing within us all the time,
The trick is to pick the right puzzle, tackle it and take it from there.
They were all pieces of different puzzles-with a twist,
These pieces fit more than one puzzle right, now what could be more terrifying than that?


-Simran Kewlani
05.12.2016

Author's Note

Criticize if required.
I'm sorry I've been away for too long, it's been a busy few months.

Reviews

[writ rajat]

very nice writer you are although a new concept you bring into the readers mind

[Adam Adams]

your philosophy's quite amazing. liked the way how smoothly and cleverly you've penned down this stuff. half of this world's already "confused" but still living as "un-confused" living.. so yeah, i guess, there's so much cliches in life... with random thoughts.

well penned. looking forward to reading your work!

[Simran Kewlani]

Thank you!

[Einstein Noodle]

perfect description of an anxiety attack ..one can find no resolutions when in such a state ..we all have to allow the storm its place and wait until it passes and we see clearly ..i think you did a fine job ..its like between awake and sleep when perceived important dreams have occurred but we just can't grasp them nor recall as wakefulness dawns .....
i have a condition that causes my ears to ring all the time so very easy to be involved right away in your first verse .. i especially appreciate the straight forward honesty of your poem
E.

[Simran Kewlani]

Thank you so much!
How does that condition come to be? Is it a psychcological thing or what? I hope you're okay though, it must be getting frustrating.
If there is no honesty in poetry, I don't see why one would write.

I hope you're doing well!

[Einstein Noodle]

if you asking about the tinnitus, this is a good short explanation:
" Ménière's disease is a disorder of the inner ear that causes severe dizziness (vertigo), ringing in the ears (tinnitus), hearing loss, and a feeling of fullness or congestion in the ear. Ménière's disease usually affects only one ear."

there is no cure known for it ..only treating symptoms ..it occurs at any age in life and is from mild to severe ... they believe it is the loss of hair follicles in the inner ear that is part of the blame .. if your asking about anxiety disorders it is most certainly psychological and emotional .. i am sure if you look it up you will find it is complex and very disruptive for those suffering .. but all of us have bouts with anxiety and are able to cope and move through them ;)
i am very well, thank you, Simran, for asking :))