Motivation

First the anger that turns you red,
Then the tears begin to shed.
After that your not so sure...
These answers you've never read.
You drive around,
Searching for answers.
All you can see,
Is that look on their faces.

The look that says "I'm really mad,"
But you know they're actually sad.
The look that's worse than any look,
Disappointment isn't taught in books.

They say try harder,
Sometimes it's a yell.
Once again you think they're mad,
Yet all their words just make you sad.
The tears run down,
There's no stopping them now.
And now you're here,
You can't look in the mirror.
They say that the pain will pass,
But it never really will.
You'll always know that look on their faces,
Disappointment causes you both pains.

It forces motivation,
For many different things.
Sometimes forces cleaning sprees,
Sometimes causes suicide tries.
Motivation is hard to find,
Until you see that face.
When they turn to you and they're out of words,
When they look at you and it instantly hurts.

...Disappointment...Motivation...Pain...