"Year Of Forgiveness.. Healing"

This year, I will forgive my mother rather than go on hating what she did to me, I will forgive her, and feel sadness for the first time that she was mentally ill. Unable, perhaps to give any part of herself away, even to me..

This is the year I am my mother's age of her death,

A rite of passage,  a monumental venture.                            

                        ~ Fearful ~

I did not really think on it until just recently,

and then thinking on it just brought up so many old issues; I am after all my mother's child.

                               ~ Tormented ~

I will live longer than she, and have lived my life completley different.

I, thank god,  did not learn what I lived;  I lived the way I should have learned. 

                                    ~ Great-Hearted ~

This is the year I am no longer my mother's victim, for she is gone, and I am still here.

Here to make a difference, here to cry for her incapacity to love, and be loved..

                                         ~ Atonement ~ 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[Michael X]

Atonement-this is utterly beautiful val- and speak your heart in most touching way of defineing
what identifes the aspect of memories and how the idera of forgiveness comes into terms when
pondering the aspect between you and your dear mother whom you will always hold next to the
heart, this writing speaks on many levels- in idea-feelings lent toward the cause- the emotion
projected to such a degree they reflect the soul and wanting- beautiful portrait expression

This is the year I am my mother's age of her death,

A rite of passage, a monumental venture.

~ Fearful ~

[Carole]

What a POWERFUL declaration you have made Val. I admire your courage to forgive! A beautiful and bold statement and stand you have made! Very encouraging to those that might be struggling the same way!

[Bhavya Kaushik]

This is beautifully sad! And moving indeed...
Right now I'm really numb and lacking in words..
All I could say is that- You are one of the best writer here at cafe..The most talented..
Heart wrenching! Purely heart wrenching! :(

[Antonio Valentino]

Another great poem.
You are very talented!

Antonio

[missghostwriter7374]

This is really moving. My heart goes out to the child and to the woman the child became.
Take care

[Steffi]

Moving piece.
I liked the way you had the broken off secions of just one word that seemed to not only apply the undercurrent for the original work but combined the words can be its own poem.