Snuff life

A collection of thoughts. Past, present and future mixed up. I was driving myself crazy thinking about how to make all this s**t coherent and consistent. F**k it. This is my life and I'm not coherent nor consistent. I don't wanna edit my life. It doesn't have to be made more understandable than it is right now. It's a life. It's mine and I'm proud of it. It's just past and present with a few glimpses of future. This is me.
This is not a f*****g novel, this life is not a Hollywood blockbuster, even when it seems to be, no sir, we all live in a f*****g snuff. The characters won't survive in the end. I'm not here to reassure anybody. I'm not here to offer easy solutions. I just have a few things to say.
I'm not the perfect one who always knows what to say or do, how to dress and be smart and funny. I do NOT always get what I want, no matter how hard I try or the blood I spit.
I'm just learning on the go. How to be myself day after day, no matter what and who is around.
The world's Program, its smooth path is always there, in front of me. How can I prevent my life from being trapped by it? In a world which is full of s**t, is it possible not to end up smelling? It's so easy to lose yourself and become just another puppet.
That's why the easiest path is just an illusion, freedom lies in the hardest ways. You can never imagine the discipline it takes to be yourself and stay true to the core of your being. When everybody wants you to live according to their idea of perfection.
Enjoy. You can read this thing from page one till the end or simply open it and read it at random, as you like.
I don't hold the truth. I'm learning on the go. I'm a spiritual roamer. Never stopping on surface or accepting the most common view or opinion. Defying common sense, hypocrisy and righteousness. To find my own meaning.
I'm a spiritual researcher. I'm on my own spiritual mission to create my own religion and make it perfect for me.
Sampling reality and any single experience to create my own life and find my direction.
I hope this could be the beginning of a mutually satisfying relationship between me and you who are reading this book.
Follow me if you like. This world needs a f*****g revolution. You and I are the chosen ones.

If you feel offended by f-words and swearing, don't go on reading. And wear earplugs and close your eyes next time you're on the bus or in the mall.

Excuse my lack of grammar, structures, idioms, vocabulary, phrasal verbs and everything else.
English is not my mother tongue.

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From my book "I am - Absolute freedom"
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