The way I love you

“I’ll never be nobody’s wife” said a song a few years ago (Anouk sang it). I love my independence too much to sacrifice it for somebody. And it always seems that compromise goes hand in hand with that kind of commitment. I wanna be me, and it won’t be a f*****g significant other to make me change my mind. I wanna flow. I’m ready to let you flow in every direction but you have to let me do the same. Freedom. Free love. And once again, if you can only relate this stuff to sex, f**k you. Just to make things clear: I'm not afraid of commitment, I'm no more scared of intimacy and sharing, at least not as much as I used to be, I'm afraid of compromise, I don't want to. The expression “open relationship” doesn't mean anything to me. That's absolutely NOT my nature. I want a solid, strong and WHOLE relationship, with a WHOLE, authentic person. I want to be my WHOLE self all my life and my partner in crime has to be on the same wavelength. I don't want it perfect, I want it REAL. I want to see all your shades, all your shadows, all your corners, all your imperfections, the core of your being and love every single segment of you. Even when you make me mad, even when you're not as I'd love you to be, I wanna be able to praise you because you're not being my puppet and you are staying true to yourself.
I want your WHOLE package, in good and bad.
I want YOU, the REAL you. Wholeness, authenticity, you. I want your stuff all scattered round our house. I want your life all scattered into mine. I want us. I want our life.
F**k strategies, I don't wanna be somebody I'm not. I've run out of best images to sell. I just wanna be right here right now for you to see.
I wanna be 100% in a relationship, involved, madly in love. I wanna be addicted to you, to your skin, to your own peculiar way. I wanna have no barriers at all, be vulnerable and exposed, be myself completely, be the person I've always wanted to be, day by day, instant by instant, with you. Share everything, every thought, every second, my whole being, my whole life, my every breath. And I wanna be 100% free, 100% myself. Can this be ever be possible? I'll keep you posted. “I am defenseless but I've chosen to be free” (Luce, Elisa, my translation).

From my book "I am - Absolute freedom"
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