Something Borrowed

Your distain
Permeates
Through my veins
As I attempt to refrain
From sinking to your low
Never knowing
When I'll be exposed
To that genetic predisposition
Of insanity
My feet paralyzed by what could be
So much so
That I can't see
The future in front of me
I look to the horizon and the sun
But they're just reminders
Of my limitations
Like a bullet from a gun
Predestined to destroy something
Before I lose my purpose
How can I avoid this
When half of me is mostly you
It's hard to find the words to
Convince myself
That I'm something new.