Autism: A Riddle Unto Me

struggling with autism

Understanding people is a riddle to me

Unable to trust, when all is mystery

All that I see

Gets saved in my hard drive memory

Ever uneasy at talking to more than a group of three

 

My home away from home is the library

OPAC, loyal friend

Always ready to help me

Start reading a book in where I can drift away

Rest of world turns hazy

Already distant memory

 

When many people surround me, panic fills me

Nerves set afire all over my body

My heart races

Frantic battling insanic

Bells ring in my ears,

Chiming out discordant rhapsody

 

Outside I may not show pain

When others label me insane

But I stand strong, coping with Autism

Forging my way ahead with optimism

 

Those with Autism

Have no fear

Being flawed in mind doesn’t make you weak

Confide in someone willing to hear

Fight through it

Make it your own

And never forget, you are not alone

Author's Note

I have autism myself but i understand many other people experience autism differently so i aploigize for any othersights in my poem.

Reviews

[Icelanna]

I think this is great - from a psychologists view it's very personal, something you would see in a case study - only relevant to that person's experience. I love the fact you've opened up about it - it's cleansing to do so and it shows people how you feel and how they can't judge you when you accept the condition yourself for what it is.
Love to you x

[silfrstjrana]

thank you its hard to deal with most of the time but i pull through lol. i just wish i knew some poetry mags/journals that would publish my poems for free or a least a small modest price. try the glitter delve gold poems when u have time. i orinally mean them for children but i think everyone can get a laugh from them

[Icelanna]

Best thing to do is get an agent, most publications/publishers don't look at unsolicited work sent to them! Publications will receive a lot of work and submissions may take up to 8 weeks for a reply (if they reply to most) and due to this they don't take unsolicited scripts (meaning work). Agents do accept unsolicited stuff and are looking for new talent so I would suggest you search for one, and don't look for one that is local, mine are on the opposite side of the country - because there are so few in my country! There are literary agents out there who specifically represent poetry, i'd suggest you'd go and do some homework on them and see what comes up x

[silfrstjrana]

thanks for all your help. will post some more poems soon

[MaidenNamedLenore]

I've got aspergers and even though (like you say) everyone with it is different, it really captures how someone with autism might feel. I love it. :)

[Phillitup]

My older brother has autism and this really spoke to me. Thank you so much for sharing your story!

[silfrstjrana]

read it too ur brother, he may like it