When I'm Gone

don't worry i'm not suicidal or depressed....just in one f my funks..i'll be out of it soon

If I could go back in time

I would take back all the damage I had done

All the hurt I’ve caused

Even if it meant having my own heart

Shattered a thousand times over

And burn in the fire I started

And watch the flames lick my skin

I would take back all the pain

If it meant pushing it all on me

And I would wipe away every tear shed

By those I love

The ones I couldn’t stop

I would have never met the people

That may have given me the most precious memories

But I had given so much pain in return

I would have rather been alone

Then see the pain in their forced smiles

I would have walked away

Before I went too far

Before the words starting flying

And the emotions got crushed

I never asked to be alive…

But now that I’m here

It takes all I’ve got just to survive

I would have never found a place I could call home

If I knew I’d be the one who tore it apart

And made it a living hell

I would have ended it all

If I wasn’t so afraid

Of the pain

The hurt

The fear

Does that make me selfish?

Or does it make me human?

I don’t know anymore…

But I do know

That you won’t miss me

When I’m gone